Do you ever feel like you just aren’t enough?
Don’t do enough, can’t give enough?
Everyone around you seems to do the best they can and you come up short, again.
In your tone of voice, your work, your estimation of yourself, your weight, your style, your smarts, your ability to save money, to raise your kids to be free-spirited yet educated…on and on.
Friend, can I lead you where my heart just went?
Let’s ask ourselves some questions:
- Is this an unusual season?
- Is it a tougher than usual season?
- Are you in the midst of what feels like a huge learning curve?
And some more questions:
- Are you getting the water intake you need, like how about in this moment?
- Are you able to take 10 minutes to do something de-stressing?
- Can you just breathe in and then breathe out in this moment?
There…so glad you joined me for that. 🙂
Is it maybe your own estimation that is causing you to be so tough on your own self?
This post is prompted by a realization I just had.
So, this is my second year of having two children. And continuing to work full-time. And since March, the two days a week I used to escape to the office turned into fully working from home. The weekly couple of mornings of childcare for my older child turned into having him home every day. The baby stopped needing naps in the mornings, and with all of the upheaval, the older one stopped taking naps altogether.
It’s been such a huge learning curve. I’ve had seasons like this in the past, where the amount of responsibility required of me for that season is just more than I can handle. And though there are some things I can drop, the minimum requirement feels many times like too much.
Anyway, I looked at my time off for the year and get this, friends. It actually makes me want to cry.
I only took one half day off for a personal day plus two more for a sisters’ long weekend. For the entire year.
I barely took that off.
I have had two children at home with me from March until September and worked full-time.
This means I’ve worked through their ups and downs and needs. And given myself to their needs while still making sure to catch up on work late into the night, after getting up early to do it.
This means, that because I’m already at home, even when I’ve been sick, I’ve just adjusted my hours instead of taking time off.
I had this thought, “girl, what is your problem?!”
I guess I would just think, I want to save my time off in case we get to travel in the summer.
And then, I’ll just wait until it’s closer to the end of the year, so I can look at those days off and have hope.
(I’ve used up my days off for the year early in the year before and it was so tough mentally!)
So now it’s OCTOBER.
Girl, take a day off.
Haha, anyway, friend I hope you have days off. I know not everyone does. I am so very blessed. And yes, I’m privileged, I really, truly am.
And I’m here to remind you that so many breaths of fresh air are here for us after we go take the walks, or take that personal day, or just stare out the window and dream a second while drinking a yummy drink.
I pray you get that recharge time soon. Let me know if you feel comfortable, your thoughts and something you do to recharge below.