Hi sweet friend!
I’m so happy to welcome you back to this blog.
It’s a place for us to meet.
To take a deep breath in, then out.
Stay awhile and let me say a few things that I hope bring, well, hope to your heart and mine!
Has this ever been you? (It’s been me)
Scrolling whichever social media platform, feeling all the feels as you see a precious new baby, then feeling all the bad feelings as some sad news hits your heart, carrying, filling up, feeling worried and simultaneously not empowered to do anything…
Have you ever tried your best to have boundaries that fill your heart and make your heart feel safe?
Only to realize you’ve been living days, months, years with many down moments, much anxiety and an overwhelming sense of defeat?
Girl, it’s me, too.
You are not alone and I love you and yes, lol this is social media, but I’m here for you.
I’ve taken a year off social media because someone close to me invited me to do it.
For me, this is a grace-filled decision that still was pretty hard to make on 12/31/2020!
Also, it’s not a black and white decision. So if I feel okay, I go on here & there. It’s taken years for me to move away from this or that restrictive decision-making. It’s been such a worthwhile journey and it also vibes with me much better to seek balance a bit more, as I can!
I’ve been back on for my business and it just feels so good to not need to be on there, and barely be there but to come on when I know it’s a good idea for me to get on and share.
I think the first thing I noticed when I stopped daily, hourly scrolling was that the ever-increasing pressure I had felt and the urgency I had felt in relational interaction started to release.
I think the first thing I noticed when I stopped daily, hourly scrolling was that the ever-increasing pressure I had felt and the urgency I had felt in relational interaction started to release.
I’m still in a lot of important healing processes but one of the outcomes for me of healing is always creating.
My essential oils business is about creativity and helping people and that’s something I’m delighted to continue this year.
Social media is the best place for me to share my heart & business while we are edging our way out of a pandemic and so I’m just posting as the creativity waves hit.
And then getting off.
I just am still seeing so many ways social media has drained me and the number one thing I struggle with as I scroll is not being able to guard my heart.
I’ve tried, but I just can’t. If my heart is soft, I’m open to whatever I see. And if I put a shell on my heart, I become someone I don’t want to be.
So I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to do social media like I have in the past and I’m okay with that.
I think I just didn’t realize there was a way out of the scroll and for 2 years I actually tried to do my normal “Sabbath” break from social and realized I actually couldn’t. It was keeping me together, even though it was hurting me.
It’s because of the treasure of relationships and the way it connects me to you, my precious friends!
So I always understood why it was impossible for me to give it up in any way, for any amount of time, but I knew my heart and soul would feel better if I could break that desperate “need” cycle and find some new ways to cope with the struggles of my life.
I also needed to find the special beauty that I have to offer, again.
There has been so much crying! I haven’t cried since becoming a girl mom- weird, I know!
And now I’ve finally just let myself tear up any time I feel it (advice passed to me from my own mama) and it’s been incredibly healing. Forgot how cleansing it is to have a good cry!
There’s so much more I could say…but I just mostly wanted to write and invite you in.
Share with me- have you ever found yourself in this cycle of being needed & not being able to offer what is needed?
Have you been able to find a good balance between living your life and enjoying social media?
I’m so grateful for each of you!
XOXO,
